Maybe it’s anxiety this morning holding me back from posting what I was planning to post. Mix that with perfectionism and you have this post today: the post about nothing.
Maybe it’s the journalist in me that critiques everything I write on my blog and always self-analyzes whether my pieces are timely enough.
“But it’s a personal blog, not a news site or magazine! It doesn’t matter as much!” I yell back.
These are the conversations I have with myself.
Maybe I should take my own advice.
What I do know is I’ve been having a lot more thoughts on consumption and what it means to create things that people want and how not to let my ego get tied into that.
I see there are alot of broken people behind these creative things we love and that much of the amazing things you see comes from the brokenness. It’s the Mary J. Blige complex. You like the pain from the work because it’s so good. But you being entertained is coming at the expense of another person giving up a piece of themselves. Should she have to continue to struggle to create at such a high altitude?
Questions that need answering.
Season One of Insecure was freaking amazing. So is Queen Sugar and so was Moonlight and so was Atlanta and so was Queen of Katwe and so is everything else that’s centering blackness on TV and in the theatre that shows us being humans and our own heroes and villains.
These complex characters are long overdue. I love seeing it.
I want to get back to some things I started working on earlier this year. Some folks have been asking me about my series “The Questions 100.” I’m not being lazy. I’m not being hesitant. I just haven’t had the means to release the content at the moment. But I recently did something about that. So yeah I don’t have dates, but the intent and action is there.
I want to go back to hosting my discussion circles. I miss that. But I’ve given alot to those around me in the past years. In 2016, I really needed ME. I’m glad I did what I needed to do. Also, for those inquiring, donations to these causes you love so much are welcomed.
This blog and online business overall has just been a life-saver these past few weeks. It’s what I’ve been needing to do for a long time. Holding back from owning my story and some of my labor was literally hurting me. I got things to do. That’s why I’m here. Isn’t it?
I have a client and some potential clients for my content services. I have goals set. We back on road.
I’m most proud to say I don’t have much to hide these days. I do charge more for my time though. I’m learning if you don’t exploit yourself, they’ll exploit you.
My new morning routine is becoming more habitual. The prayers are being answered. The meditations are helping; I think. But I’m no longer skipping meals. That was not healthy. For the most part I’m feeling good again.
It’s the time of year to cleanse.
There was this book I was reading called The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron and you’re supposed to write out things like this as a way to get whatever that “it” is out of the way in order to continue creating. Cameron called them “Morning Pages.”
Solange sang about it in “Cranes in the Sky,” my personal pick for song of the year.
I’m learning it doesn’t go away, honestly. We can learn to manage it. I feel like there’s a Bible scripture on this, but I can’t recall it at the moment.
I do know that my latest it will begin to make sense when it’s supposed to, as it always does.
Don’t ask me why I chose to go with this post today. I’m going with what feels right. Back to regularly scheduled programming next week.
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