I have this weird anxiety when I come to the keyboard these days. I don’t know what this is about. I feel like what I say doesn’t have as much value. I think alot about trying to make everything a masterpiece.
Even when I do get something out on the page, I feel like it sounds forced. It’s paralyzing and when that’s the case, this writing thing is no longer fun.
Maybe it’s part of my process. Maybe it’s something I need to just get over. I think I have a lot to say, but it’s hard to share it all. I’m a perfectionist. I overthink it sometimes.
You would think that after 6 years of blogging, that it would be easier.
But would I have gotten this far had it not been my gift? Surely, I would not return to it, if it was not.